"YOU PEOPLE"

The insolence
The privilege
The entitlement
The gall
The indignant
The sanctimonious
The superior mindset
The nerve of some of these people to use phrases such as but not LIMITED TO:
ALWAYS UNGRATEFUL
ALWAYS WITH A BAD ATTITUDE
ALWAYS PLAYFUL
ALWAYS ANGRY
ALWAYS MEAN SPIRITED
ALWAYS UNHAPPY……
ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS
Well damn, let’s see here:
YOU benefit greatly from the laws, policies, legal landscape, rules, codes, mandates, systems in place that REFUSE to acknowledge our humanity, that continually DEHUMANIZE us, and BLACK OPPRESSION.
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children. YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children who deal with malnourishment
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children who deal with ILLNESS
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children whose BACKBONE succumbed during the middle of the night
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children whose BACKBONE just fell terminally ill so NOW they are caregiver but instead of reaching out for help to lighten loads we MUST encourage them to NOT discuss what goes on in the home because in your, “FAKE ASS GIVING A FUCK” YOU will get them taken away
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children whose LIVES have been altered with no preparation, processing or input
YOU are getting a decent salary off of the backs and brilliance of inner city children whose LIVES are totally NOT like yours but yet, YOU can walk away coined as PROFICIENT in their daily lived experiences.

In a school setting when I see small children with untied shoestrings, I don’t see what is natural but what is not audible but to me, clearly understood.

I see negligence

I see lack of care

I see lack of love

I see no compassion

I see no worth

I see invisibility

I see no dignity provided

I see know warmth

I see lack of purpose

I see lack of humanity

I see apathy

I see lack of preparation

I see lack of positioning

I see lack of respect

I see unprotection

I see know maternal instincts for a said group of children

I see inhumane treatment

I see that their lives do not matter

I make a point now to STOP

I make a point now to PULL OUT OF LINE

I make a point to look them into the eye and say I NEED YOU SAFE, I NEED NO ONE TO ACCIDENTALLY MAKE YOU FALL, I NEED YOU NOT TO HURT YOURSELF and you know what I get in return every time?

I get the small to show to me that they understood, I made my heart clear and they appreciated it with a high five, hug or big smile.

HERE YOU GO, NOT TELLING US THE LOCKS WILL BE CHANGED, THE WINDOWS WILL BE OPEN, AND YOU WOULD METAMORPH INTO AN ANGEL. WE SAT AROUND AND LAUGHED AND YOU SAT AND MADE SURE BOTH GIRLS GOT NEW SET OF KEYS WITH A SMILEY LANYARD, WAS THAT YOUR WAY OF SAYING, I AM GOING TO A NEW HOME, I WILL FOREVER BE WATCHING OVER YOU, I KNOW THE MANY DOORS YOU WILL UNLOCK AND STEP IN WITH MUCH CONFIDENCE, BOLDNESS, ASSURANCE, AND CLARITY. I SHOWED YOU HOW TO NOT ONLY TREAT PEOPLE BUT TREAT YOURSELF AND DEFEND YOURSELF. I TAUGHTY YOU BOTH HOW TO PROTECT YOURSELF AND LOOK OUT FOR EACH OTHER AND BJ. I TAUGHT YOU AND I EXPECTING YOU BOTH TO DO AS I DID AND LEARN MY LESSONS AND KEEP IT GOING.

THIS MATRICULATION OR MOVE WAS IN THE MAKING IF YOU KNEW IT OR NOT BUT WHAT I CAN SAY; YOUR NEIGHBORS UNDERSTAND THEIR ROLES. YOU ARE MUCH LOVED BY ME, I KNOW I HAD YOUR LOVE, ACCEPTANCE AND CARE FOR SURE.

YOU THREE WERE MY WORLD AND THEN ADD BJ.

YET, I LEFT YOU WITH NEW SET OF KEYS

YOU CAN EITHER GO THROUGH DOORS OF SUCCESS OR FAILURE

YOU CAN EITHER GO THROUGH DOORS OF ELEVATION OR DEMOTION

YOU CAN EITHER GO THROUGH DOORS OF EMPOWERMENT OR DISEMPOWERMENT

THE THING IS, ONLY YOU CAN DO IT!

On 2-24-2020 Liz, you said in an out of the incoherent manner; I GOT ENOUGH COURAGE TO PUT ON THE SHOES GRANNY BOUGHT ME.

YOUR GRANNY PASSED ON THE 9th of this month.

YOU recalled that LAST Saturday with your Granny when she got YOU your bras and YOU said that YOU asked her for a pair of ALL BLACK sneakers and she got them for you, YOU very rarely asked for much but as her honorary caregiver…..

I SAT WITH IT AND I WILL PEN WHAT THAT MEANT TO ME to hear you say that on THIS day.

The fact that you shared this with your dad and I on this day; the day we lost a couple of legends and you reflected on our personal legend; one Dr. Katherine Johnson of Hidden Figures. Kobe Bryant and his daughter GiGi of who ALL the WORLD PAUSED to pay homage to them ALL……

THESE ARE THE LAST SHOES YOUR LOVING GRANNY PURCHASED FOR YOU

THESE ARE THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, NOW I CAN SEE, SHE NEED YOU TO KEEP RUNNING LIFE’S RACE BECAUSE SHE WAS PREPARING TO LEAVE YOU HER LEA LEA

THESE ARE THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, YORU GRANNY WILL NEED YOU TO PICK UP THE BATON WHERE SHE WILL SOON FALL OUT OF THIS LIFE’S RACE

THESE ARE THE LAST PARI OF SHOES, I WILL NEED YOU TO ALWAYS REMEMBER MY WORDS AND FACE

THESE ARE THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, YOU NEVER ASKED FOR MUCH

THESE ARE THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, I WANT YOU MY FUTURE AND LEGACY TO UNDERSTAND MY LOVING TOUCH

THESE AREH THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, I AM CONFIDENT YOU WILL TREASURE O SO MUCH

THESE ARE THE LAST PAIR OF SHOES, THAT SHOULD GET YOU TO INWARDLY REALIZE WHERE YOUR FEET WILL TREAD

THESE ARE THE SHOES I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND AND BRING OUT ALL THAT SHE PUT IN YOUR HEART AND HEAD

THESE ARE THE SHOES I WANT YOU TO RUN A MILE AND A DAY

THESE ARE THE SHOES YOUR LOVING GRANNY GAVE TO YOU FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT GOD GIVES LIVE AND TAKES IT AND IT IS UP TO US WHAT WE DO IN BETWEEN THOSE DAYS.

NURSING

NUTRIENTS

NOURISHMENT

NOBLE

NATURAL

NORMAL

NURTURING

NUMEROUS

THIS SATURDAY NIGHT THAT I DECIDED TO STAY OVER NOT KNOWING THE NEXT DAY THE HARDEST DAY OF OUR LIVES WAS IN THE MAKING, THIS SATURDAY SHE TOLD ME TO GO AND EXCHANGE TAMAR BRAS, SHE LIKED WIRED BRAS AND SHE GOT YOU YOUR TRAINING BRAS.

I HAD NO IDEA SHE WAS TELLING ME I WOULD HAVE TO NOT ONLY EXCHANGE BUT SERIOUSLY GOT TO HANGERS AND GET YOU MEASURED, ASSURED AND PAY CLOSE ATTENTION TO NOT ONLY YOUR DEVELOPMENT MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY, PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY BUT PICK UP WHERE SHE WAS GOING TO LEAVE OFF BECAUSE HER TIME OF NURTURING, NOURISHING, BEING NATURAL AND NURSING YOU WAS COMING TO AN END.

WE SAW HER DETERIORATE TOGETHER BUT WE WERE ALL STILL CAUGHT OFF GUARD ON THAT SUNDAY BECAUSE WE THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE HERE FOR YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS TO COME BECAUSE WE ALL NEEDED COACH TO BE HERE TO COACH, DICTATE, DIRECT, SHOW, GIVE, LEAD AND BE……

WHAT SHE WAS DOING THIS SATURDAY WAS GIVING ME MY MARCHING ORDERS

WHAT SHE WAS DOING THIS SATURDAY WAS HOLDING ME ACCOUNTABLE

WHAT SHE WAS DOING THIS SATURDAY WAS HANDING BACK TO ME HER HONORABLE DUTIES

WHAT SHE WAS DOING THIS SATURDAY WAS PASSING OVER HER WORK TO ME

WHAT SHE WAS DOING THIS SATURDAY WAS SAYING; I HAVE LAID THE FOUNDATION AND NOW I NEED YOU TO PICK UP, UPROOT, PLANT, REPLANT, DO AS I DID AND DO IT BETTER, SWIFTER. SAFER AND RIGHT AND FOR THIS AND HER I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL!

Allow me to begin with 2 poignant quotes:

Dr. King penned a letter from the Birmingham Jail and in it he has a quote we love to recite but REFUSE to get the gist because of the narratives, lies and framing of innocent POOR BLACK victims.

“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. We are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly.”

I am also reminded of a quote by Benjamin Franklin where he spoke on JUSTICE. “Justice will not be served until those who are unaffected are as outraged as those who are.”

A question was asked on the news, “What lead to a shooting at the Maryland Heights Community Center?

As I sat and watched the news, when describing law enforcement; I heard words and phrases such as:

HEROIC, HIT THE SUSPECT, GUNMAN, LIFE COULD END REALLY SOON, COURAGE, PROFESSIONAL, STOP, STOP, STOP, STOP, BROUGHT DOWN, QUICK THINKING ACTIONS OF LAW ENFORCEMENT, HE DIDN’T WASTE TIME WAITING ON BACK UP OFFICERS…..

Yet, when it comes to BLACK men, women and children it is KILL FIRST and ask questions and find out that they had no weapons later.

What got my pen to wielding is the young lady they interviewed by the name of Sasha. She said and I quote, “THIS IS WHY SHE DIDN’T WANT TO MOVE DOWNTOWN because of acts such as this!”

Fair enough but I pondered her ignorance, detachment, disengagement, truth and false sense of security, O DID SHE FEEL WHAT IS NORMAL TO US? O DID SHE UNDERSTAND OUR DAILY PLIGHT? O DID SHE GET A GLIMPSE OF THE ANGUISH, ANXIETY AND FRUSTRATION WE FACE DAILY? THIS IS WHAT WE CALL, LIVING WHILE BLACK.

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS deserve it?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS had it coming?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS need to be terrorized every waking part of the day?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS need the legislated malpractice and maltreatment?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS need to have open season on our lives from conception to grave?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS must have did something to no longer day in and day out NOT come home to our loved ones?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS are not daily afraid?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS don’t feel threatened?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS aren’t outraged?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS don’t get people in YOUR neighborhoods assure our lives are LEGISLATED this?

So, did she feel that we poor BLACKS are responsible for drugs and guns in our OWN neighborhoods?

WHO IS BEHIND LEGISLATION FOR REAL FOR REAL?

YOUR PEOPLE ARE!

YOUR PEOPLE ARE ENTITLED AND PRIVILEGED TO:

KILL

STEAL

DESTROY

AND BE INSOLENT ABOUT IT AS WELL

YOUR PEOPLE ARE THE MOST VICIOUS, VIOLENT, ENRAGED, VENGEFUL, CONTROL FREAKS, SUPERIOR WANNA BE’s AND TERRORISTIC KIND EVER.

TO WALK IN TRUTH, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GOOGLE RACE RIOTS, MASSACRES, ALL THAT YOUR PEOPLE HAVE DONE TO EVERYONE AND THEN IT WILL BECOME CLEAR, WHY MARYLAND HEIGHTS HAPPENED.

YOU CAN’T RUN FROM YOU AS LONG AS YOU CHOOSE AND YOUR KIND SWEETIE, YOU JUST CAN’T HIDE.

ONE LAST THING, LOOK AT MASS SHOOTINGS IN AMERICA, THE BULK ARE FROM PEOPLE THAT LOOK LIKE YOU AND NOT ME!